Twist and Turns

So life has thrown me another curve ball. I know God is in control of each day and situation I am in, but sometimes it is still frustrating. I have been experiencing some weird medical stuff over the last few months. Been going back and forth to lots of doctors and having test run. All this said there are still no concrete anwsers except that my pancreas is in really bad health. There is no idea why this is the case. More test ahead in my near future as well as more waiting. Also my lympnods are swollen and there is a mass on one. I have done a great deal of crying over the last few days. I don't know why this is all happening. I was excited about some things that were ahead, but had to pull back on some due to not fully knowing what medically is ahead for me. Frustrating and eye opening at the same time. A few things that have come from this: 1) my family is by myside and willing to face whatever with me 2) I have some amazing friends that are praying 3) I am learning to trust yet even more on God to guide me through this 4) i never wanted to need anything from my dad's side of the family and yet had to get medical information from them. I guess you can say it has taken me down a number of twist and turns with no end. Go in tomorrow to talk to doctor and get blood test results, but might have to wait until August for a final anwser. The waiting is so hard and all consuming at times. I keep praying that God will guide everyone to a final outcome and hold my hand as I find out what it is. Abigail